Wednesday, June 7, 2017

After all these years

I'm so sorry to see that it's been almost a year since my last post.  I'm so inconsistent.  That being said, I have felt impressed to do a new post "summarizing" my journey up to this point.

I am believing my God, Savior, Lord Jesus Christ for a supernatural

Almost 14 years ago I found out that the reason my legs felt heavy and I couldn't walk up the steps without pulling on the railing was because there was a growth inside my spinal cord at Tll/T12.  I was told by one of the most well known neuro-surgeons at the Cleveland Clinic that the growth was in the worst place possible.  That is where all the nerves in our spinal cords come together like a pony tail.  so in his opinion it would be very very risky to operate, without significant damage.

He believed that it had been there all my life but grew each time I was pregnant, from pressure of the baby and hormones.

The most significant change was after giving birth to our twins over 14 years ago. 

As each year has past, my body has declined.  I started to need the cane to help balance myself and walk over 8 years ago maybe?  I transitioned to a walker over 2-2 1/2 years ago.  I used to be able to walk between my counters in our kitchen, but now I have to hold on at all times and scoot sideways.  Sometimes my legs give out without any prior notice and if I'm not holding on to something, I go down.  I've fallen so many times over the years that I've lost count.  I've broken many bones, including my right wrist that needed surgery to put it back together with a plate and screws.

I've lost a lot of feeling in my lower half of my body, inside and out.  I have bladder and bowel problems and barely feel when my legs are touched. 

I need to explain this because according to doctors, once nerves lose their ability to function/feel, there is no coming back. 

So, I know it's going to take a miracle from my God.

But that's what God does, He's in the business of doing miracles!
He's the same yesterday, today and forever. (Hebrews 13:8)
His stripes that He took before hanging on the cross for my sins, were for my healing. (1Peter 2:23/Is 53:5)
I could go on and many scriptures to back up what I believe!!!

I'm getting excited because I know He is faithful and true, it's who He is.  (Revelation 19:11)
He watches over His word to perform it.  (Is 55:11)

He's teaching me that as His daughter, I am to co-labor by, speaking and declaring His word over my body and whatever else doesn't line up with His word, to see change.

It is His delight to give me/us His kingdom.  (Luke 12:32)
Jesus taught us to pray "Our Father, Who is in heaven.  Holy is Your name.  Your kingdom come, Your will be done on earth AS it is in heaven."  This is suppose to be a daily prayer....for now, present tense.  Not some distant future.

Jesus brought the kingdom of heaven with Him, and He left it with us....His people, His church.  We are commissioned to spread/release His kingdom. 

I also felt impressed that I was to upload a couple of videos that my niece took of me walking.  You need to be able to see what I look like now, so that WHEN my healing manifests you will KNOW that my God did indeed do a miracle in me. 

Even as I type this, hope arises in me. 
"I remain confident of this: I will see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living."  Ps 27:13

These 2 videos were taken right before Christmas of 2016, 6 months ago.  It's become even more difficult to get around since then.  But even as I type this....I am getting excited, for God is so good and has always been so faithful to me.  I can hardly wait to share with you the video of me running..... stay tuned, because it's coming.