Friday, December 7, 2012

To find God, one must first believe...

Heb 11:6  "And with out faith it is impossible to please Him, for he (anyone) who comes to God must believe that He is (that He exists and IS all that He says He is), and that He is a rewarder of those who (earnestly and diligently) seek Him (with all their hearts)."  Do you suppose the "reward" here is Himself?  Jer 29:13 states that if you do seek Him with all your heart you will find Him.

Here in Hebrews it says he who comes to God must believe that He exists.  But do you, Beloved, believe that He is all that He claims to be in His word?  We can not just believe in a portion of Who God is, what part of God we are "comfortabe" with.  Many in the world do that, (its actually idolatry), and sadly there's some in the church that do that too.  God can not be changed, God can not change.  We can not make God into what we want Him to be, by what we've been taught by others (if it doesn't line up with scripture~ Paul warns of this often in his letters, see Col 2:8 for one), nor by what we have experienced in this life.  He's so much bigger than that.

We must take God at His word (what He says about Himself), by faith.  That's what Heb 11:6 is saying.  Regardless if we've ever seen or experienced that part of Him we struggle to believe in!

Want to know Who God is (all that He claims He is)?  Read the Bible like you would go on a treasure hunt, digging deep, searching diligently with hope of finding that treasure you seek for.  Asking all along the way for God to reveal Himself to you, to give you revelations into the mystery of Who He is. 

That is His heart and eternal life, "that you might KNOW HIM and Jesus Christ, Who He has sent."  John 17:3

To look at Jesus, while He walked on earth among men (read the 4 gospels), you will see God the Father personified.  Jesus is the image of the Father, His exact representation.  Col 1:15, 19: 2:9; Heb 1:2,3

That's why Jesus came, that by His shed blood, we might be reconciled (reinstated) back to God and begin to walk with Him in intimate fellowship. 

There is no substitute for the wonder of walking closely with God, getting to know Him, little by little, even while here on earth. 

Monday, November 26, 2012

The choice is Ours

Has anyone told you yet today, that Jesus loves you?  If not, let me be the 1st!  Jeus loves you passionately!

Did you know that God did not make hell for man?  He made hell for satan and his angels.  When Adam and Eve chose to disobey God and sin, they chose to separate themselves from God.  God made man to walk eternally with Him, in intimate fellowship.  After Adam and Eve sinned, this beautiful relationship between God and man was broken.  A holy God can not walk with sinful man.

God, Who is outside of time, knew this would happen, (by the way, He knew and YET created man great is His love for us).  Because He knew, He had a plan in place all along, He would send His only Son, Jesus Christ, to redeem man and repair the broken relationship between Himself and man.  There is only one way to God, to heaven...through Jesus Christ, His Son and His shed blood.  

The choice to choose Jesus Christ's sacrifice on our behalf is given to each and every person.  We choose Him and His plan of salvation or hell.  God's will is that no man perish (in hell), but that everyone choose Life, through His Son.  1 Tim 2:4

Once you choose Him, you are restored into that beautiful eternal relatonship again with our holy God, who now calls you His child.  You begin your walk with God now... "This is eternal life, that they may know You, the only true God, and Jesus Christ Whom You have sent."  John 17:3 

The relationship between you and God begins the moment you accept Jesus' sacrifice on your behalf.  You enter into a covenant with the Living God.  Now begins the wonder of getting to  know the only true God and Jesus Christ His Son. 

Have you chose Him yet?  If so, have you begun your walk to know Him?

Friday, September 28, 2012

Beholding God's Beauty

Did you know that we "children of God" (Born-again, regenerated Christians) don't have to worship God as a doctrinal idea in the "outer courts"? 

God is everywhere~ Omnipresent, but His literal manifest presence was in the Holy of Holies in the tabernacle, and He desires for us to behold Him, His manifest presence now too.

When Jesus died for our sins and fallen man's sin nature, the veil between the Holy of Holies and the Holy Place was rent.  Do you know what that means?  It means, not only can you behold God's manifest presence, He beckons you to "enter in"!  Jesus came to restore our relationship with the Father, Himself and Holy Spirit.  Problem is, do we seek to enter in to God's presence or do we seek our life here and now, filling our hearts with all but Him?  Jesus says in Matt 6:33 "seek 1st the kingdom of God and His righteousness..."  But instead we choose to seek after all in this life (to better our life and the lives of our children) "keeping" God in heaven", worshipping Him in the "outer courts" on Sundays.  How He longs for intimacy with you...He sent His only Son who gave His all for that very reason.  That we might be restored to Him in intimacy, beholding His beauty.

A.W. Tozer says it so eloquently....
"God formed us for His pleasure, and so formed us that we, as well as He, can, in divine communion, enjoy the sweet and mysterious mingling of kindred personalities.  He meant us to see Him and live with Him and draw our life from His smile. ...
The Omnipresence of the LORD is one thing and is a solemn fact necessary to His perfection.  The manifest Presence is another thing altogether, and from that Presence we have fled...
The whole work of God in redemption is to undo the tragic effects of that foul revolt, and to bring us back again into right and eternal relationship with Himself. ...
Ransomed men need no longer pause in fear to enter the Holy of Holies.  God wills that we should push on into His presence and live our whole life there.  This is to be known to us in conscious experience.  It is more than a doctrine to be hold; it is a life to be enjoyed every moment of every day.  ... The greatest fact of the tabernacle was that Yehovah was there; a Presence was waiting within the veil.  Similarly, the presence of God is the central fact of Christianity.  At the heart of the Christian message is God Himself waiting for His redeemed children to push in to conscious awareness of His presence.  That type of Christianity which happens now to be the vogue knows this Presence only in theory.  It fails to stress the Christian's privilege of present realization.  According to its teachings we are in the presence of God positionally, and nothing is said about the need to experience that Presence actually. ...  Who is this within the veil who dwells in fiery manifestations?  It is non other than God Himself.  ... He (God) waits to show Himself in ravishing fullness to the humble of soul and the pure in heart.  The world is perishing for lack of the knowledge of God and the Church is famishing for the want of HIs presence. ... the instant cure of most of our religious ills would be to enter the Presence in spiritual experience, ...
God is so vastly wonderful, so utterly and completely delightful that He can, without anything other than Himself, meet and overflow the deepest demands of our total nature(let me ask you, have you ever thought of God as delightful? :)   ... to penetrate, to push in sensitive living experience into the holy Presence, is a privilege open to every child of God.  With the veil removed by the rending of Jesus' flesh, with nothing on God's side to prevent us from entering, why do we tarry without?  Why do we consent to abide all our days just outside the Holy of Holies and never enter at all to look upon God?  We hear the Bridegroom (God) say, "Let me see your face, let me hear your voice; for your voice is sweet, and your face is lovely." Song of Solomon 2:14  We sense the call is for us, but still we fail to draw near, and the years pass and we grow old and tired in the outer courts of the tabernacle.  What hinders us?"  Take from  "The Pursuit of God" by A.W. Tozer

What hinders you, Beloved?

David, a man after God's own heart, had an intimate relationship with the Living God.  He longed to stay in God's house, beholding God's beauty.  Ps 27:4
Why do we seek after all the "lesser things" just like the world?  When we can have God, Himself?  He alone can fill us, satisfy us and complete us.  He made the way, and He beckons us to come.  What's holding you back from seeking God's literal presence?  He does desire you to experience Him, to encounter Him.
Won't you say yes to God today?  Begin to seek Him with all your heart.  Be determined to spend quality time with Him, cutting out whatever necessary to make room in your day for that time.  Surrender your heart and life to Him and ask Him to reveal Himself to you.  If you truly do this, He promises to show up.  He will reveal Himself to you, not only in His written word but in actual experience.  (Jer 29:13)

Please Beloved, won't you hear Him calling out to you today?

Sunday, September 9, 2012

Are you a "Follower of Jesus"?

Ephesians 1:1 Amp~ Paul says to the church at Ephesus~ " the saints (the consecrated, set-apart ones) at Ephesus who are also faithful and loyal and steadfast in Christ Jesus:"

Followers of Jesus Christ are to be saints, set-apart ones.  Set apart for what/from what?

Set apart from the world and its ways...FOR GOD and His kingdom.

Did you know that everything and every choice we make affects our walk with God?  There is no standing still or "in place" in our walk.  Whatever choices we make in life either draws us closer to Him or lures us away from Him.  Next time you watch TV or go to the movies (or anything else you choose to do) ask yourself..."Is this drawing me closer to my King?"  If your answer is no, then its certainly luring you away.  Satan's been around for a very long time and the Bible assures us he's been perfecting his deceptions, distractions, and traps for the hearts and souls of mankind (that he might even deceive the very elect).  He knows how to lure our hearts away from the King.  He's very subtle and tricky and very good at his job; and its very rarely obvious.

Do you "miss" Jesus when you are not spending time with Him?  If your answer is no, please take a good long look at your heart.  Jesus says He's coming back for a pure and holy Bride~ Jesus never minced words and still doesn't.  Please go read the Gospels and  search to see if Jesus ever said..."blessed are those who have in abundance, or a secure and happy life" or "enjoy your life".  Instead you will find "hard" words from our Lord and precious Savior..." the slave is not greater than his master is he, ...if they persecuted Me they WILL also persecute you." (John 15:20);  "Whoever wishes to save his life will lose it; but whoever loses his life for MY sake, will find it." (Matt 16:25);  "If anyone wishes to come after Me, he must deny himself and take up his cross and follow Me."  (Matt 16:24)  Discipleship (being a saint, a "set apart one" a "lover of Jesus") is costly....also see.... Matt 19:21, Mark 8:34, 10:21, Luke 9:23, 18:22, Matt 6:26, 33...the list could go on and on. :) 

Why do we ignore the very words of the One we claim to love?  We say instead in our hearts, "Surely He didn't realllly mean that, especially for us here in America, for this is the land of opportunity and abundance.  He wants to bless us, He wants us happy!"  But that's not the words He spoke in the written Word.  Jesus never changes (Heb 13:8) and His words are everlasting  (Is 40:8)  How can we expect God to "show up" (manifest Himself) in our churches in our lives, when we are filled up with the world and ourselves?  We must surrender our hearts and everything we hold dear, to Him.  Jesus even goes as far to say, "He who loves father or mother more than Me is not worthy of Me; and he who loves son or daughter more than Me is not worthy of Me." (Matt 10:37)  He is not interested in hanging out in one little corner of our hearts (content to remain "hidden" there until we finish with "our" lives here on earth and eventually join Him in heaven) ~ He desires all our heart now.   He did indeed die and paid the price for it.

These are the kinds of things He's been speaking to my heart for months now, as I've been beseeching Him to draw me into His heart, I want to KNOW HIM.  I do believe, I am not the only one whose been hearing these words from the King of Glory ~ there must be many others!  For this is His heart and His kingdom.  What we "have" and "don't have" in terms of possessions, is not what's on His heart, Beloved.  The precious hearts and souls of people are!!!  He says, "the harvest is plentiful, but the workers are few..." (Matt 9:37) 

Are we pursuing Him in intimacy and therefore being filled and used by Him for His kingdom?  OR... are we pursuing our best life to enjoy now? 

Seek Him and to know His heart, He will reveal Himself and His heart to you, IF, you seek Him with all your heart.  (Jer 29:13)

Beloved, His kingdom is the opposite of this world, don't believe the lies of the enemy.  Jesus is calling forth those who will surrender all in order to find Him, He's the treasure.  His plan will go forward, He's calling you to join Him.  Time is short, He knocks on the door of your heart, will you choose Him and His kingdom or your own?  If you chose your own way/life, He'll go find another that will chose Him. 

I was once told by a dearly loved fellow believer...that it was "implied" in the scriptures, the opposite of what I had always believed (on a certain subject to be discussed at a later time).  I took that as a challenge and searched the scriptures to see if what that person said was the truth.  Guess what I found out?  It was wrong, what I had always believed was true.  I would have never found that out had I not sought Him in His word to see for myself.  I challenge you to seek for yourself, if what I'm saying now is His very words and heart or not?  Don't take my word for it, Beloved! 

If you were to look at my life, you might say, hey, I don't see you any different than me.  Believe me, I have  not arrived.  The only difference (if there is one), between us, is that the Lord is giving me eyes to see and ears to hear and a heart to know Him, because I keep asking Him to.  Does an alcoholic or anyone else with an addiction, seek help if they don't see and acknowledge they even have a problem and need help?  It's the same here.  1st we seek Him and as we spend time with Him, He shows us our hearts and our sins and our need for Him to cleanse us.  And through this process we begin to see as He sees and long for what He longs for.  This must happen before we live it.  My heart longs for my theology to become my reality.  If I keep seeking Him, I believe it will happen.  I did not plan on posting to my blog today .  As you can plainly see, I'm not a "good" blogger.  :)  My last post (an amazing experience) was in April!!  But as I sat here this morning with my bible open, ready to read, I realized the page had blown back from where I left off yesterday.  I thought, OK LORD, what did I miss?  I began to re-read it and it was in the very 1st verse that He began to pour all this into me!!!  I could hardly write it out fast enough!  When He speaks to our hearts, we must be ready and willing to listen and obey.  When He spoke all these words to me this morning, I knew I had to obey and blog them.

Do you have ears to hear what the Holy Spirit is saying to your heart today?

Thursday, April 19, 2012

My Encounter with Jesus

For countless months I’ve been beseeching my Lord during precious quiet times that I might have an encounter with Him; to experience His manifest presence.

Maybe 2 months ago, my younger sister Michelle notified me of a healing conference in her area and asked me to pray about whether I should go or not. Through believing for my healing, God has intimately brought me closer and closer to my true heart’s desire, which is to know my Healer. I asked my LORD about going and He replied, yes. Not only once, but several times, He answered me through His word. My husband gave me his blessing and we bought a ticket to fly north.

My time of waiting was filled with anticipation as the cry of my heart continued to be, “Jesus, I don’t want to ‘just’ be healed, I want to see Your face, encounter Your presence, to meet with You.”

A few weeks prior to leaving, the Lord spoke to my heart to fast for 3 days, and confirms His Word through scripture. I’m determined to hear His voice and walk in obedience.
I long to know His Father’s Heart. My sister feels led to join me in the 3 day fast.

Attending the 2-day sessions and evening services of the conference were glorious experiences, for the sheer delight of being with fellow worshippers who were unabashed in their expressions of love and adoration for the KING OF KINGS.

On the 3rd day of the conference, our fast was complete and we ate in faith. That morning the LORD reminded me of Daniel and his 21-day fast, that the angel came ‘after’ the fast was over. (See Daniel chapter 10). I sensed that my LORD was telling me that I too was going to experience Him upon the completion of my fast…which meant today was the day!

We attended a special ministry luncheon and went through a prayer line. They anointed our heads with oil and spoke words of knowledge over us. A woman laid her hands on me and said, “God has heard your heart’s desire and He is right now going to give you your heart’s desire.” I tucked that away in my heart.

It was the 2:00 session and the speaker, who was also a worship leader, called all who were sick to come forward and find a place on the floor. I went up, walking with my cane for support, in anticipation. I sat with my legs straight in front of me, back upright (with no back support) on the floor up near the alter. I closed my eyes and began to worship my King. The speaker encouraged us to picture ourselves worshipping uninhibited, all alone in a field of tall grass. While doing just what he had said, I saw myself dancing! I was dancing before the LORD in worship to Him. With my hands lifted up twirling and dancing, Jesus entered the “vision” and danced with me. My LORD danced and twirled me in the field of tall grass. The vision ended.

I continued to worship Him, my eyes closed, thanking Him for the beautiful vision He just gave me. (To understand the significance you need to realize I haven’t been able to walk unassisted, let alone dance, for almost 8 years).

Then it happened….I distinctly saw Jesus (with my eyes closed), walking through the crowd of people, towards me, touching several worshipper’s heads along the way. The God of all creation bent over and smiled at me, almost playfully. He then lowered Himself down to one knee and proceeded to sit casually at my feet “Indian Style” (legged crossed). I noticed His sandaled feet, and white robe.

I glanced down (the whole time I have this ‘vision’ my eyes were closed), and saw His hand on my chest! I immediately grab onto His hand with both of mine. This is how others observed me for hours with my hands clasped over my chest. I cannot begin to describe how real this encounter with Jesus truly was. The tender words He spoke, the way He looked, the atmosphere of His Presence was truly beyond words. I saw different features (hands, feet, forearms etc…) rather than a complete picture and I sensed it was a matter of trust.

During my time with Jesus, He shared some very specific and personal things with me. He did not speak in audible words, His lips never moved, but rather we communicated via the language of Heaven…heart to heart. He also allowed me to see things in the spirit realm.

At some point I looked down and noticed His forearm instead of His hands, indicating He had changed positions, I now noticed that He was holding my hands. My sister and others observed these slight changes, for they were the only discernable movement during the 9 hours that I sat there with Jesus! My sister said that I had such an expression of “Bliss” on my face, she just knew that THE KING OF GLORY was there~ she got a purple flag and began to wave it in honor of His literal Presence in our midst.

Several times I thanked Abba (Daddy Father God~) for sending His Son to spend time with me, and when I did I saw Jesus smile. It brought Him such pleasure when I thanked the Father. I also saw Jesus smile several times during worship; I sensed His pleasure in our worship of Him.

About 2/3rds of the way through the 9 hours, the evening speaker asked the children if Jesus had given any of them a word of knowledge? A young boy about 6 or 7 years old went to the microphone and said Jesus told him to pray for a woman with a cane. The young boy and several others gathered around me and laid hands upon me. Then a young woman came and sat behind me and she began to pray not only with power and authority, but with very specific detail concerning my condition including the tumor, my spinal cord, my nerves etc… that I knew she was hearing directly from Him! (I later discovered that earlier that day while in coffee shop, I man came up to this college student and told her she would later be praying over a woman with a cane! That’s why she responded when the young boy announced it over the microphone!) As she prayed, I could feel warmth radiating from where her hands were on my back. The prayer from her and others around me continued for over an hour then I knew it was time. Excitedly I yelled out and they lifted me up. With a young woman on either side of me, we began to walk. With every step my stride lengthened as my legs felt lighter and stronger! It was happening!! I could feel it happening!! My sister was ahead of us videoing, while my niece was behind me walking and watching. We walked once around the sanctuary when a woman abruptly stopped us and asked us to pray over a young paralytic. He had seen me walking and all of us praising God and assumed my miracle was complete. Even though we were in the throes of the long awaited miracle of my healing, we never hesitated to go pray over him. We prayed for quite some time and witnessed the move of the Spirit upon His life as he gave his life to Christ. All the while I couldn’t help but notice the longer I stood still, the miraculous changes in my condition were regressing. It was as if strength was receding while my legs got heavier and heavier.

When we finished praying, I asked the girls to walk with me again, but it wasn’t the same. Instead of the lightness and strength, I felt heaviness. Instead of my feet automatically lifting higher and higher, they began to drag and shuffle across the floor. It was after 1 am and the church was closing up for the evening. Sadness and disappointment overwhelmed me….I began to blame myself for not “possessing” my miracle….to see it finished. I was supposed to run. I was distracted. I messed up God’s plan. (Notice how the enemy tried to turn my focus from the glorious gaze of Jesus and His work onto myself and my supposed failure). I eventually went to bed, but not before I wrote out my entire encounter with Jesus in detail until 4:20 am.

I wanted to bask in the reality of my encounter with Jesus but I could not push away the tortured thoughts that I somehow messed up God’s plan to manifest my healing. Thoughts of TRUTH did penetrate my heart of despair knowing our Omnipresent God lives outside of time. He knew all that happened was going to happen. I could NOT mess up any plan of God. Yes, maybe it was a distraction and I didn’t receive my healing in completion. But…what satan meant for harm…God will turn for HIS GOOD. My thoughts swung back and forth from faith to fear and eventually I fell into a fitful sleep. An hour later, I bolted awake to an all-out assault of torturous thoughts. Though I should have resisted them, I found myself wrestling with them back and forth from mind to heart.

Exhausted, I finally fell back to sleep, only to awake the next morning to an overwhelming presence of grief. After my mom and niece left to go back home, my sister, sensing in her spirit what was going on inside of me, prayed and spoke truth over me. She reminded me that the God of all creation left the right hand of the Father for 9 hours to sit with me. She commanded the discouragement, grief, and disappointment to leave in Jesus name. She also reminded me how He answered the very cry of my heart! I had repeatedly asked to have an intimate encounter, to behold His face. She retold the power and reality of this supernatural experience and how the enemy wanted to steal the power and joy of it all. All sadness and discouragement LEFT. I kid you not, it was completely gone. My heart lifted, and rejoiced in God as I began to praise Him.

My LORD and savior Yeshua, came and visited me and sat with me for almost 9 hours. Thank you Abba Yehovah, thank you Yeshua, my King and my bridegroom God.

I have never been more sure than now, that my body will respond to the work that the LORD Himself had done (not only on the cross) but while with me. I WILL RUN ON THIS SIDE OF HEAVEN. I choose this day and every day to trust in Jesus.

Oh how HE loves me ~ but realize precious child of God… just how much HE loves you too. That is one of the messages of this entire encounter… that God the Son would leave heaven to sit with a “nobody.” I’m no one famous, just a housewife and mother of 4, longing for MORE OF HIM. I long to know my Jesus, and the wonders of His person. He responds to every longing heart! Simply ask Him. Jer 29:13 “And you will seek ME and find ME, when you search for ME with all your heart.”

Saturday, April 7, 2012

The most amazing experience of my life

I've been asking in my heart of hearts to behold Jesus, yet in my wildest dreams I did not expect to have the kind of intimate encounter that I had this past weekend. Jesus told me healing would come with the "laying on of hands" but how could I possibly anticipate they would actually be HIS HANDS?? You won't want to miss the "rest of the story" come back soon to hear the detailed, life-changing encounter!!