Wednesday, April 17, 2013

Tragedy or Triumph?

It was Saturday night... I fell hard, catching myself with my right hand.  There was no pain so I didn't think I had broken it, but I could not use it at all.  I called over my oldest son to help me up and walk me over to where I could sit down.  It had instantly swollen and it just didn't look right.  A trip to the emergency room revealed it was not only broken, it was broken in 3 places.  I was then directed to a wonderful specialist (I was told he was the best in the area), who informed me that I would need surgery to align the bone and put in a metal plate and screws.  Now, at this point I'm not even thinking ahead, I'm just taking this moment by moment.  I can tell you, for such a rotten, bad thing to have happened I had such  peace... an inner peace.  As anyone who knows me can tell you, "drama" runs in my family.  I have been known to display some drama every now and then.  :)  Besides, I am just as prone to reacting to pain in my body and life as the next person.  This was truly God showing up with His peace!  Surgery was set for the next day.

Now, I've been told by those in the medical field, bone pain is one of the worst pains.  My doctor prescribed a strong pain medicine for me to take after the surgery.  (he was going to prescribe an even stronger one, but I told him I'm such a light weight, I'd just sleep my days away).  So I was "prepared" for a lot of pain.

From the moment I awoke from surgery until this very day I've never felt any pain.  At 1st I attributed that to the 'local block' I was given and then to the pain medicine that I was taking on schedule (it was stressed, not to let the pain meds laps).  But after only a few days, with no pain at all, I weaned myself off.  From day 2 on, I was able to work my fingers and wrist a little, because of not feeling any pain.  This is a testimony of God's power and grace.  I thank You my Heavenly Father and Jesus, my Lord.  

This is just one of many many "set backs" in my body as I continue to walk in faith, trusting and believing in my Lord for a complete and total restorative healing.  My peace during this latest trauma is non other than God's power working in me.

Apostle Paul says in 2 Corinthians 12:10 (Amplified)  "So for the sake of Christ, I am well pleased and take pleasure in infirmities, insults, hardships, persecutions, perplexities, distresses (and even broken arms :); for when I am weak [in human strength], then m I [truly] strong (able, powerful in divine strength)."

Its an opportunity for Jesus to be manifested in and through us, in some way.  It may not have been a miraculous instant healing of my bone (not for lack of prayer!!! :)  But, His power was displayed in me by the inner peace and having never felt any pain at all from the time I broke it, after surgery and the whole healing process.

I could have been completely discouraged, crawling into a fetal position if not for my glorious Lord God!!  I praise His holy name, Jesus!!!

He graciously answered another immediate need and desperate cry of mine.  "Oh Lord, how will I care for my family?"  You see, I'm right handed and walk with a cane, using it to support myself with my right hand.  From the moment I fell and broke my arm, I was completely thrown "off balance", unable to get around by myself at all.  First, He answered my cry by my niece, Kaylin coming to help.  (which I'm eternally grateful for her beautiful serving heart, as she reflected Jesus to me and my family in her serving for 6 weeks... always with a willingness and never a complaint.  May our Lord, multiply blessings back into her life a 1000 fold!)  Second, as a call to my primary care doctor brought about an amazing answer to my dilemma of immobility... a walker with a "platform", an attached arm rest with a handle.  I was able to walk by myself 1 day after surgery with this amazing device.  ( Oh Lord, bless the person who came up with this idea).

I want to thank my Jesus for using this horrible accident and situation to display Himself in and through me.  To HIM be the glory!!!  Love You Jesus!  Love you my Heavenly Father!!!

PS.  I want to say again...I believe with all my heart I will be healed, restored to complete wholeness by Jesus Christ.  I will run again (after over 11 years now of not being able to), and dance before my Lord and God....with a thankful heart of praise!!!  ;-)  Just saying.....

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